What’s behind that pretty picture- Truth bomb


I am very grateful for my life and share those aspects of it regularly. The purpose is not to attract ooh’s and ahh’s, but my intention is that it may help others realize the shiny lil treasures in their own that they may be overlooking. I am a stay at home mom. When my coveted “position” comes up in general conversation with fellow moms/women who hold a position outside their homes, I usually receive the general comments such as, “You are so lucky!” or, “You have a dream job.” ….HA! *giggle, giggle

My sarcastic, introverted laugh is not to say that I dont enjoy my life or take for granted the arrangement in our family. (Because it is in actuality an “arrangement” that we have chosen in order to create the best, although not always easy, structure that we desire for our family) Rather, I chuckle to myself because of the picture they may imagine. They must think it’s all sweet as homemade pie, lounged, kicked up feet, fresh daily batches of cookie makin’, empty minded, simple thinkin’, leave it to beaver’s mama, smooth sailing UP IN HERE! It’s not. πŸ™‚

For these guys it is.

I am not complaining, nor is this a whine. I just want to clarify. Currently, my windows are wide open because I am disinfecting and shocking the stuffy cloud in my house with crisp outside air (it makes sense in my head). Once again my house is in shambles (organized piles of disorganized mess that I am sorting out) because I have started something that I may not be able to finish in the course of one normal day, but that’s what I get for being “overly optimistic”. Additionally, it’s minimum day, so that cuts things even shorter for my time crunch. Yet, the glory in all this is that I am getting better at managing myself within challenging situations, these days! God’s work in my life and my past personal struggles with anxiety & anger are being overcome! My days are filled with chaotic moments, struggles, juggled schedules & mistakes, just like anyone else’s. But at the end of the day I can genuinely say that our life is abundant, blessed, happy, & full of love.

Even as adults, we can sometimes lose sight of the blessings in our lives and fall into comparing ourselves to others if we are not mindful of who WE are because of Him. With the bombardment of social networking, status updates, photos & other decorated glimpses into the lives of our peers, there can live discouraging illusions. My personal goal in sharing parts of my life, as is my goal in my writing, is to reach and relate to others. Mattew 5:16 says, “Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light standβ€”shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. BY OPENING UP TO OTHERS, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.” As a believer in the life changing word of God, I desire to share pertinent truth and answers. What I have realized is that my personal journey may be similar to that of another and therefore my victories, experiences, & revelations can encourage another! Basically the “If I did it, so can you” mantra.

I started this blog on my birthday as a sort of gift to myself. I had only been “dreaming” of writing this blog and sharing what I feel I have to give for too long without acting on it. Writing is an outlet for me. This was something just for me. However, when you get the revelation of who you are in Christ and who He is inside of you, things usually turn out to be more than you imagined.

I continue to write and share out loud knowing for now there may only be a handful listening. But I will continue to share and build this into the vision I hold onto, believing that there is purpose in it. In my humor may there be joy for another, in my boasts may there be glory to God, in my experiences may there be wisdom shared, and in all I do may God’s will be done through me. I encourage you all to step out in faith, respond to God for he desires much for you, and always share of the great things he does in your life. Keep focused on Him and he will direct your paths!

6th birthday delights

My lil’ growing young lady is such a delight. She wears her sweet little heart on her sleeve and you will never have to question how she feels. We used to think she was shy, but as she has grown, we are discovering that is very much not the case. She knows she is special & likes to be treated that way. This year for her birthday she was really looking forward to sharing her special day with her class & taking full advantage of the recognition among them πŸ™‚ She had it all planned out. Girly cupcakes were to be brought to school, she was to wear her favorite new shirt, she would wear her hear down (because it’s very rare that mom allows her to wear it that way to school), and she was to have a magic pointing finger for the day, meaning we had to oblige her every (reasonable) request! After a special day at school we got ice cream & went to the park for none other than a lil mini photo shoot that was all about the birthday girl, duh!

Makaila enjoying her ice cream & her crown just as much!

Modeling her birthday outfit of choice.

Spinning & twirling.

She opened some of her presents early that morning (because she refused to wait til we went out for her birthday dinner) and got the Jesse doll she wanted.

Sharing her spotlight with her new best friend.



Everyday Reign

It is a new week once again. I am very glad for it! For me, it comes with much excitement. It is a chance for a “fresh start”. I never quite get all the things I plan to get done the week before. So the beginning of a new week always seems like the perfect time to catch up and conquer all my goals… both past & present.

“I will get ahead this time!” I always tell myself.

This past week did not go at all as I planned. Just about everyday hardly went as I foreseen. Last minute plans arose, unplanned tasks got taken on, and almost-forgotten appointments had to be squeezed in. Yet, all in all, a new week rolls in and washes out the old. Time waits for no one.

With much trial and error, I am finally learning to welcome the tides instead of being knocked over by them. Many times as a young, married, mom of three children all under the age of seven, I had allowed life to overwhelm me. When rough days, unfinished work, & crushed plans piled up before me I dragged the heap with me.

These days, I am getting better at just letting go. I have figured out that I will forever be the emotional bag lady if I don’t. I have come to know that being a stay at home mom is in fact one of the hardest jobs a person can do. It takes much self discipline, self control, and drive that many working people do not possess. There is no stern boss to make you think twice about lagging on your work nor a training department to assist you with new job duties. Yet, the company inventory is priceless. My children will continue to grow no matter how imperfectly or greatly I handle the job. Life goes on regardless of my ups and downs.

As with motherhood, it is becoming more apparent how I must apply this same understanding to all areas of my life. There is too much to strive for, hope for, live for, move toward, to keep getting caught up in the things that do not go my way. Every time I choose to let go of something that I could have weighed myself down with, it is the opportunity to grasp something new and greater that will produce new and greater results in my life. I have realized that I can not control everything that comes along in my life. But what I can gain control of is myself. And as my Pastor put it, “If you can learn to control yourself, you will then be able to take control of everything around you.”

The key is a daily walk with God thru Christ Jesus. He created us to reign. He created us to have authority & dominion. We were created to rule. Rule what? Rule ourselves. If we rule ourselves, we will be able to reign in life. Most of the time people get frustrated because they have no control of circumstances in their lives. Most of the time it is circumstances that we have gotten ourselves into because of lack of control of  ourselves. (Mmmhmm, I said it. I know I have been there.) The great thing is that the Bible tells us that we were meant to reign.

Romans 5:17 says, “For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God’s abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ.”

What rules your days? Days turn to weeks, weeks to years of your life. Do new days come with dread and overwhelming stress or are you able to welcome them?

No Ace of Cakes, but sure was Sweet fun!

Finally sat down with the kiddos and had some fun trying out their new “Girl Gourmet-  Ace of Cakes” kit that they got as a gift from a friend of mine. She of course is talented enough that she makes real cakes, so it was a perfect and thoughtful gift coming from her. Thanks Cassy! 

After fumbling with the directions & some setup… we were good to go! Of course it only came with ONE mixing bowl so I gave them each their own…ahem, three kids who want everything equal :/
Just add water to the packets… easy enough. Right?

Jerm mixing & eating the blue fondant.
Lesseya preparing the batter to bake. Well actually, more like microwave for 30 seconds πŸ™‚
 This was our FIRST attempt at laying the fondant. Of course it kept crumbling.
So we kept trying to save it with more water…
and then more flour when it got too gooey…
and then more water… 
then more flour… 
Yeah… it didnt work out! lol
Tada… Our clumpy, holey fondant. {We just blame it on Jeremiah, hehe}
So after lots of laughs and getting lil Jerm off to bed, we decided to go for it again…
And finally… our better, our smoother, our less clumpy, less holey creation πŸ™‚
We decided it looks more like two funky decorated marshmallows, but proud regardless…
Makaila said, “Good thing its not somebody’s wedding cake!”
 And on that note….
…it was time to taste….
Uh, yeah… good thing it wasn’t somebody’s ANYTHING… cuz it tasted like play dough, haha!
But by far… a very fun time with the kiddos!
I want to try again πŸ™‚

Back from Maternity leave & my lingo is a bit off….

I’ve been out of the groove the past several days… maybe weeks. I’ll have to check my productivity level by percentage of clean laundry that has made it back into drawers and last blog written and let you know for sure. But the point is that I am aiming for consistency again.

The most current focus in my life has been our new dog, Samson. As if I have all the time in the world, no children, and maids to handle my home for me… I got my husband to agree with me that it was time for us to get a dog. We had been considering one since probably our last kid and had been seriously looking into it for the past year. The timing seems about right considering our family’s track record for expanding. Jeremiah is 2 years old now… so that would perfectly match the age difference between he and his new pet sibling to that of Mo & Fro (the girls).

So, most of the people who know me also know that I am a bit of a cook when it comes to entering into new situations in my life. Example? Aside from common sense… I prepared a binder with instructions, information, and cute inspiration clippings to direct my support group during the hospital stay and birth of my first born in the event that I was too busy laboring to share the specifics. (I know, admittedly embarrassing for me, funny for you). So for my new passion, Samson, there was no exception to my madness.  I researched and studied how to become a good Boxer Mommy and Alpha Pack Leader in two days. I know it is not plausible… but I gained enough info to make myself feel confident enough to take Him on. It’s all about mind set people πŸ˜‰

Overall, I am in love. After narrowing it down to dog breed, age, and method of adding a pup to our brood, we have adopted or “rescued” a 1 1/2 year old male Boxer. Initially I thought that I wanted a perfect, new, soft boxer pup with a red bow! Yet, in the end we decided that giving a home to a well deserving dog was right for us. Online searching and dog visits were our routine for a few weeks. Long story short, we finally met Samson. He has over exceeded my high, maybe even unrealistic at the time, expectations. Nevertheless, we were blessed with abundantly more that we asked for. He is even tempered, healthy, loving, gentle, obedient, laid back, loyal, and housebroken! Dream puppy for our family. Things are settling now and I feel urged to come back from my two-week new dog owner maternity leave.

Wanna know the ironic humor of it all? You know how when you have a new baby and you accidentally find yourself cooing or talking in high pitched tones to grown adults cuz you’ve been doing it all day with your newborn? Just as with motherhood to human children, I find myself carrying my lingo into other areas of my life which are inappropriate. When pleased with my husband my response has been, “Good boy!” and when Jeremiah threw his body across my desk while I was trying to write this post I scold him with, “Jeremiah….Off!” and a loud clap as to startle him.

Eh, no worries…. it’ll wear off soon. I hope :/

Artsy Fartsy

In the past two days I have gotten to get in touch with a side of myself that was dusty and rusty. In lieu of the “alternative fall activities” at the kids school and our upcoming event at church,  there has been a lot of artsy things going on.

Today I took advantage of my husbands latest disposition and got the chance to help out in Makaila’s class. It was pumpkin carving with the Kindergartners and it was actually a really good time! A quick side story… Makaila and another girl in our group went girly and got icky about gutting our pumpkin. So this really petite, adorable little boy steps up and says in a Mr. Cool type of voice, “Let the Man handle this. I’ll take care of it.” And then he sort of flicked his head back as to move his shiny hair from his brow and dug right in. Gosh, kids are hilarious!

Anywho.. I was pleasantly surprised to know that our activity was educationally motivated. There were predictions and estimating. Oh, and did you know why farmers leave about a 3 inch stem on the pumpkin? Well, I do…because it keeps it from growing moldy longer. Bam–You learn something new everyday! The scientific pumpkin carving affair lasted only about an hour so it was butcher paper Indian-vest-making for me (Novembers project). Carving, playing with slime, tracing and cutting…. no wonder kids have such a carefree outlook on life. I need to do it more often!

Additionally, with the upcoming Trunk or Treat Festival that our church is holding I’ve gotten to paint and do a few more hands on activities that I have not partaken in in a long while. It’s simple kiddy art but has been so much fun and more therapeutic than I thought it would have been. Between that and playing around with costume paint ideas I’m in art mode! Of course, I have to come up with appealing & creative ways to project information on a regular basis, but this carefree side of imaginative projects has inspired me greatly!

These are some faux-wood signs for our festival. 
A section of a sign I am still working on.
Some makeup looks we were playing around with.
Used what we had on hand so this is all “regular” face makeup.
This was our first, quick, dry run at an Avatar look.
Got the right supplies today and anxious to try it again.

And a couple of random breaks in between…
 

Jerm rocking out. 

Keeping himself busy and proud of his “creation”… his bed nook he made all by himself  πŸ˜‰

When life throws you poopy diapers skip the but’s & wash the car!

After another busy weekend on the fly this Monday morning was a bit chaotic.

To make a familiar and long story short, this morning involved:

  1. A groggy mom
  2. Spaced out kids
  3. A scavenger hunt through mixed piles of laundry (clean or dirty?… who knows now)
  4. Several last minute outfit changes (duh, today is the start of spirit week & team jersey day at school)
  5. Bumper 2 bumper traffic
  6. The hauling around of my drugged up husband (he hurt his back this last week) 
  7. And of course an episode of leaky diarrhea diaper… surprise!!! πŸ™‚

However, it seems the tides are turning.  I am determined to come out on top today! I have managed to bathe baby, the car, and even MYSELF and its only 11am! Tada!


Believe me, if you don’t know, that is like really, really good in Mom standards. Ahh, the simple joys of a stay-at-home mom. Not too shabby!

A lil sugar

Jeramiah and I decided to baked a cake the other day for the “others” before they got home. Inspired by Jeremiah’s sweet acts of kindness (“Show a little love” post) and all that sugar he was laying on mama, we made a red velvet cake in the shape of none other than a heart, of course! We used mix straight out of the box… nothing spectacular. But we had a really nice time doing it together and it was a fun experience for the lil dude. Who knows… maybe a lil’ Chef one day like his Daddy?

School Picture Day Preview

The kid’s came home with a familiar blue and white paper. It is one that I have seen too frequently over the last few years. A school picture order form. 
I’ve ordered the traditional school pictures every year. (Sometimes twice a year!) Of course… how can I NOT buy every school picture of my growing babies! No brainer, right proud Mommys? 
Well after considering the bland, studio-background, stiff posed picture packages that I have sitting in the back of file cabinets and under mounds of un-filed papers in cluttered drawers….I decided it was time to switch it up this year. 
With cooperation from the kids, we decided to pass on school portraits and decided to have a fun, humble, personal, lil’ photoshoot of our own. We used a local library as our location. The kids ended up having lots of fun and it turned out to be a memorable experience for all of us. 
Here is a sneak peek for now, however, this one is my favorite of all of them!

Show a little love

So I was working at my desk and lil “Jerm” ran up and gave me a quick squeeze, smooch on the arm, & then went back to playing!

I just melt when he does sweet things like that out of the blue. πŸ™‚

That totally changed the course of my day! I forsee cake baking and extra special play time. Give someone a hug today, it means more than you know. Happy Wednesday!