What’s behind that pretty picture- Truth bomb

I am very grateful for my life and share those aspects of it regularly. The purpose is not to attract ooh’s and ahh’s, but my intention is that it may help others realize the shiny lil treasures in their own that they may be overlooking. I am a stay at home mom. When my coveted “position” comes up in general conversation with fellow moms/women who hold a position outside their homes, I usually receive the general comments such as, “You are so lucky!” or, “You have a dream job.” ….HA! *giggle, giggle

My sarcastic, introverted laugh is not to say that I dont enjoy my life or take for granted the arrangement in our family. (Because it is in actuality an “arrangement” that we have chosen in order to create the best, although not always easy, structure that we desire for our family) Rather, I chuckle to myself because of the picture they may imagine. They must think it’s all sweet as homemade pie, lounged, kicked up feet, fresh daily batches of cookie makin’, empty minded, simple thinkin’, leave it to beaver’s mama, smooth sailing UP IN HERE! It’s not. 🙂

For these guys it is.

I am not complaining, nor is this a whine. I just want to clarify. Currently, my windows are wide open because I am disinfecting and shocking the stuffy cloud in my house with crisp outside air (it makes sense in my head). Once again my house is in shambles (organized piles of disorganized mess that I am sorting out) because I have started something that I may not be able to finish in the course of one normal day, but that’s what I get for being “overly optimistic”. Additionally, it’s minimum day, so that cuts things even shorter for my time crunch. Yet, the glory in all this is that I am getting better at managing myself within challenging situations, these days! God’s work in my life and my past personal struggles with anxiety & anger are being overcome! My days are filled with chaotic moments, struggles, juggled schedules & mistakes, just like anyone else’s. But at the end of the day I can genuinely say that our life is abundant, blessed, happy, & full of love.

Even as adults, we can sometimes lose sight of the blessings in our lives and fall into comparing ourselves to others if we are not mindful of who WE are because of Him. With the bombardment of social networking, status updates, photos & other decorated glimpses into the lives of our peers, there can live discouraging illusions. My personal goal in sharing parts of my life, as is my goal in my writing, is to reach and relate to others. Mattew 5:16 says, “Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. BY OPENING UP TO OTHERS, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.” As a believer in the life changing word of God, I desire to share pertinent truth and answers. What I have realized is that my personal journey may be similar to that of another and therefore my victories, experiences, & revelations can encourage another! Basically the “If I did it, so can you” mantra.

I started this blog on my birthday as a sort of gift to myself. I had only been “dreaming” of writing this blog and sharing what I feel I have to give for too long without acting on it. Writing is an outlet for me. This was something just for me. However, when you get the revelation of who you are in Christ and who He is inside of you, things usually turn out to be more than you imagined.

I continue to write and share out loud knowing for now there may only be a handful listening. But I will continue to share and build this into the vision I hold onto, believing that there is purpose in it. In my humor may there be joy for another, in my boasts may there be glory to God, in my experiences may there be wisdom shared, and in all I do may God’s will be done through me. I encourage you all to step out in faith, respond to God for he desires much for you, and always share of the great things he does in your life. Keep focused on Him and he will direct your paths!


Everyday Reign

It is a new week once again. I am very glad for it! For me, it comes with much excitement. It is a chance for a “fresh start”. I never quite get all the things I plan to get done the week before. So the beginning of a new week always seems like the perfect time to catch up and conquer all my goals… both past & present.

“I will get ahead this time!” I always tell myself.

This past week did not go at all as I planned. Just about everyday hardly went as I foreseen. Last minute plans arose, unplanned tasks got taken on, and almost-forgotten appointments had to be squeezed in. Yet, all in all, a new week rolls in and washes out the old. Time waits for no one.

With much trial and error, I am finally learning to welcome the tides instead of being knocked over by them. Many times as a young, married, mom of three children all under the age of seven, I had allowed life to overwhelm me. When rough days, unfinished work, & crushed plans piled up before me I dragged the heap with me.

These days, I am getting better at just letting go. I have figured out that I will forever be the emotional bag lady if I don’t. I have come to know that being a stay at home mom is in fact one of the hardest jobs a person can do. It takes much self discipline, self control, and drive that many working people do not possess. There is no stern boss to make you think twice about lagging on your work nor a training department to assist you with new job duties. Yet, the company inventory is priceless. My children will continue to grow no matter how imperfectly or greatly I handle the job. Life goes on regardless of my ups and downs.

As with motherhood, it is becoming more apparent how I must apply this same understanding to all areas of my life. There is too much to strive for, hope for, live for, move toward, to keep getting caught up in the things that do not go my way. Every time I choose to let go of something that I could have weighed myself down with, it is the opportunity to grasp something new and greater that will produce new and greater results in my life. I have realized that I can not control everything that comes along in my life. But what I can gain control of is myself. And as my Pastor put it, “If you can learn to control yourself, you will then be able to take control of everything around you.”

The key is a daily walk with God thru Christ Jesus. He created us to reign. He created us to have authority & dominion. We were created to rule. Rule what? Rule ourselves. If we rule ourselves, we will be able to reign in life. Most of the time people get frustrated because they have no control of circumstances in their lives. Most of the time it is circumstances that we have gotten ourselves into because of lack of control of  ourselves. (Mmmhmm, I said it. I know I have been there.) The great thing is that the Bible tells us that we were meant to reign.

Romans 5:17 says, “For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God’s abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ.”

What rules your days? Days turn to weeks, weeks to years of your life. Do new days come with dread and overwhelming stress or are you able to welcome them?

Jeremiah- Little guys can do big things too!

We recently had an experience which gave us a powerful testimony within our family and I just had to share with you all. Jeremiah was hospitalized, unexpectedly to us, mid last week. He is now home and we give all glory to God! We knew that Jeremiah was more than a conqueror. Knowing that we knew that his healing was not to be the only victory, but that He would leave an anointing on the whole unit he was in and on others! Just like his favorite bible character, David, lil guys can do big things too!

I transcribed the details of this by email to our family and friends…

Saturday Morning 12/04/2010:
I just wanted to update you all who didn’t know… As of Thursday 12/02/10 Jeremiah has been admitted to the hospital due to what doctors call Croup. It’s a respiratory condition that can affect young children and has caused him to have an awful sounding cough and breathing issues. 
He started with the distinct cough Wednesday night. The next afternoon we brought him to the ER when he got a 104.5 fever and struggled breathing normally. He is now in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit at Kaiser Bellflower. His condition improved overall from when he initially came in, but with it being a respiratory condition his stats fluctuate throughout the day.
We are thankful for and taking full advantage of all care & procedures available to him. However, we know his full healing as well as our faith are in Our Mighty God & great Physician. He will come out of this whole & strong. This sickness in not allowed to remain in his body! Greater is he that created life and is in Jeremiah, than any sickness in this world! 
He will be evaluated for release today. Please join your faith with us not only for his release, but for full healing and correction when when get him home and care for him there.

UPDATE Saturday Afternoon 12/04/2010:
The doctor gave me the news that they may have found something in Jeremiah’s blood culture and will confirm later in the day. I come against this in JESUS NAME! 

UPDATE Saturday Evening 12/04/2010:

The lab confirmed a bacteria was found in Jeremiah’s blood stream through a blood culture. They say it came back as Staphylococcus. For that he would need to be treated IN the hospital for an additional 10 days. Also this bacteria usually causes complications such as Sepsis which is a condition that can cause organ dysfunction and other serious respiratory issues. The Blood Infection Specialist ordered re-test. They ran second tests to confirm or check for contaminate as this is very serious. The test will take 24-48 hours to determine results. We expect to hear word late Sunday. The Dr. explained that the possibility that this is a contaminate (a false result at first reading) is rare when this specific bacteria is found as it hardly ever came up accidentally.

UPDATE Sunday Afternoon 12/05/2010:Earlier than expected the Dr. came and said his cultures came back NEGATIVE for BACTERIA as we had claimed and believed for. “It’s rare, but I guess in this case it was” – Doctor

Jeremiah was released Sunday 12/05/2010!!!! My Jesus is real and Alive today!!!!


When this whole ordeal began, it seemed to be the results of a cold maybe flu that we were dealing with. Then the symptoms and diagnosis seemed to be coming back worse and worse. Then unexpectedly a wild card diagnosis. Yet, from beginning and while going thru, we stood on the word and our faith and claimed what we knew. We also had many others believing and joining their faith with us. We knew that as it worsened it just meant that this was a miracle that was going to glorify God in the end and prove his power. We feel blessed to have so many, including a God believing family, who supported us in faith, not only concern. And we are grateful to not only know of Jesus, but know him. And as he has shown, to know Jesus is to live in victory, bear rights as his children, have access to his power, and to be a supply to others even in trying times. He sent his word, we just received it and held on to it that he be glorified and these things turn around for our good and ultimately that it would result in the strengthening of the faith of others!


I love you all! Thank You for all your love, support and prayers. YOU AND I WALK IN VICTORY BECAUSE WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERERS and HEIRS TO HIS THROWN!



Free at last?

“You could release a slave and hand over the unlocking key,
but they may continue to remain in bondage and never be truly free.
Until there is a change in mind set & one discovers who they really are…
They will never live as they were meant to be, even if they run afar.”
-Curly Heir
Do you believe that you are truly free? Free to do what you want, when you want, however you want? Like rapper T.I. says are you gonna “Jus live your life, aint got time for no haters.” or  are you ” jus doing you”. No one is gonna tell me what to do, right! Are you free because you are “living life on your own terms” or “living out loud”.
If you believe that you are free, then think on this: What does your lifestyle yield? With true freedom comes happiness, power, peace. To be free is to be unobstructed, without charge, unbound. Does that describe your life? Is your future unobstructed? Are your days filled with power because you are unbound by worry and past hurts. Are you really living a life that you are happy with & fulfilled in?

Or are you a slave? One definition of a slave is: one that is completely subservient to a dominating influence. A slave is someone who lacks the power and liberty to change their circumstances. Whether or not they believe they are free many people still live under bondage. Bound to frustration, lust, depression, hopelessness, stress, anxiety.Why? Because there has been no renewing of the mind. (Romans 12:12 tells us that we must be Transformed BY the renewing of our mind)

One of the biggest “Haters” that you will ever meet is your enemy, his name is Satan. No I am not talking about a red man with dark eyebrows, two horns, & a tail. I am talking about a real, spiritual, being that does not have your best interest at heart. In fact, he wants to destroy you! (John 10:10 says, The thief comes only to kill, steal, & destroy; I [Jesus] have come that you may have life and have it to the full“)

He wants you enslaved to his lies. He doesn’t want you successful, at peace, or to know who you really are! He is a “hater”! He wants you to believe that when you drink or party you’re powerful and desirable; but doesn’t want you to know that you are really a slave to addiction. He wants you to believe that when you seek sexual attention or sleep around that you gain value; but doesn’t want you to know that you are only gaining a warped concept of love & are seeking a void to be filled. He wants you to believe that when you refuse to believe in God that you are empowered, free from rules and a dull life; but does not want you to find out that you are missing out on a relationship with the one who can give you access to peace, unmeasurable blessings, & true freedom from all of your past hurts and bad experiences.

Do you want to live a Free life? A true life of freedom regardless of you shortcomings, your upbringing, your mistakes, your hurts, or what situations were handed to you? You can despite what people said you were supposed to be or despite what society says your life will amount to. I was the eldest, 8-year old child whose mom passed away after living with cancer in her body. At the age of 16 I was an unwed, pregnant teen living in a single parent home with a father who was a drug addict & in and out of jail. At the age of 21 I was the angry young woman with the rocky marriage barely hanging on by a thread. By society’s standards, Today I should have been the 25- year old single mother who neglects her kids to party up the youth she lost. But by the grace of God I am something much different! Regardless of what I was dealt or the decisions I made, when I chose that I wanted out of all that I was enslaved to, Jesus gave me access to my freedom from a broken life and into my rightful place. You can be free too! Whether you are a 15 or 50, it is time to take your place and choose to be FREE! Find out who you were meant to be by having a real relationship with Jesus.

Peachy Keen Friday!


I don’t spend my days in the “work place” but the weekends are just as exciting to me as most of you all.

Today I am very grateful for the noticeably increasing peace of God on and in my life. By this do I mean that I am a perfectly calm, cool, collected person, and all is peachy keen up in my world?…. NO! By all means, NO! However, what I have noticed is the change in response. When I am in mid flip out mode– grunts, groans, and all– I am able to pull it back by simply stopping and remembering that all I have to do is cast all my cares on Him, for he really does care for me!

For any of you who have known me… big difference! 🙂

Just think… God is the same yesterday, today, and forever! He is the same who conquered the grave. He is alive today. Alive in me. So if he can conquer death… I’m sure he can conquer attitudes, rage, and running high emotions. And in me… it would take that same grave conquering power, but it will be conquered. 🙂

That’s why God calls us “more than conquerors”. A conqueror battles and then defeats. In Jesus, all I need to do is walk in my victory cuz its already laid out. Done! Isn’t living in Him awesome?!

I wish you all a happy, care-free Friday! If it’s not thus far, then get to speaking truth in your life and move on in peace 🙂

Hello [I am] Twenty Five

BAM– You win the Lotto! It’s the big one. Instant Billionaire! What would you do with your winnings? A flood of exciting ideas rush to mind, huh? Expensive car, house shopping, sparkling pool, shopping spree extravaganza in your new car, plane trip to paradise destination! Am I the only one or did any of these thoughts pop up in your head too? Well this was a thought I arrived at recently during a random internal conversation that all started when pondering on my nearing twenty-fifth birthday. (I know, what’s that got to do with my twenty fifth birthday?! I did say “random”. You know those times when you think on an idea and you end up in a completely different place in the end that had nothing to do with your original thought. Well this was just like that.)  Let me backtrack for a moment.
Hello, today I turn TWENTY FIVE. Another year of life, health, growth & experience. I’ve officially arrived to my mid-twenties. It’s a fairly significant year in age & a bit of a milestone in a person’s course of life. With the coming of this new year of age, I began to evaluate my life. Now, I already know…. before anyone says it… I have already been told that I am still “just a babe”, I’m barely headed to, “the prime of life”, and I am, “just beginning”. I am well aware and this is in no way a whine about aging. However, I began thinking on my experiences, my failures, my triumphs, my accomplishments, thinking about where I am presently and where I want to go. Questions rose in me. What did I envision for myself several years ago? Where did I see myself headed? What are my goals & visions? Have I acted on any of those things yet? What is holding me back from turning those goals into realities in my life?
So, why the heavy duty questions? As I approached this birthday I recognized that this year was personally substantial in my life. At the age of  twenty-five my Mom transitioned on to be with the Lord. As an adult who had an early start at creating a family of my own, that fact strikes me greatly. Being here now, realizing that for some, for my own Mom, this was all of the time they lived, everything they had done in their life here on earth was all they would do, that made me think deeply. As many people know, my Mommy has made a large impact on my life. In her last years before she passed on she made large impacts in the lives of many through her faith in Jesus. I thought about what I am doing in my life. I have been blessed with a wonderful husband and three children whom I am very proud to call mine. But aside from the family that I have been blessed to have, I know there is still much more in store. I have had visions & ideas nagging (for lack of a better word) at me for some time. I just know that I am purposed to do more. That led me to the questions: what are my goals & why am I not acting on them?
I began thinking on the many ideas I’ve had floating in the back of my mind and I began to get inspired & excited. Oh the things I would do if only….. if only I had “all the money in the world” as the saying goes. What if I’d won the lotto, what then? Well after the initial ballin’ out of control, day dreamin’ madness that most of us fathom, I have thought about what I’d do. “I could do this, invest in this, create this, run with this, make this happen”. When most people think big money, they think freedom, power, security. So are these the things that I feel I’m lacking and the reasons why I hold back from not acting on my goals? Hmm, I know much better than that! 
Romans 8:16-17 says, 
 “The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together.” 
I am a believer in God and his Word. Believing that word, I am inspired to live without caution because I have freedom, power, and security! I am a child of the most high King, I am royalty with authority. Every plan that God has for my life was meant to succeed. Then it all clicked like it never had before. What am I doing in my life?!
Which brings you (if you are reading this) and I here. One of my personal goals has been to start and carry on a blog. I love to share. Share ideas, experiences (past and present), share knowledge, truth, humor, and inspiration. I know that God has given me a “voice” to share. I have decided that I am no longer going to sit back and let time pass as I choose not to live in purpose. In the past I have not been the kind to emphasize on my birthday. But this year, something was just different. It’s my birthday today! Today I am turning twenty five! Twenty five years ago today, I was born. Heeeey! Whoop! Whoop! Today I am alive to live my twenty fifth year and I am excited about it. Who knows, I think they say confidence comes with age, but this year I am saying, “Happy birthday to me!”
If you have not realized it by now this is my first blog post. Welcome to my blog :) I am inspired to take from every experience in my life with humor, transparency, and most of all God’s wisdom in order to share, relate to & encourage others with purpose that I may bring Honor & Glory to God with my life. I look forward to inspiring and being inspired by others. What better time to “give birth” to something so special and significant to me than on the day I was born. This is just the beginning of the many things to come. Today I am not a lotto winner, however, today I turn twenty five and my life will never be the same!